yesterday

Yesterdays meeting went as suspected. The Dr.s informed us that a feeding tube would do no good since she is already aspirating on the liquid in her stomach. The 2nd bleed in her head has grown larger and surgery cannot fix it. We discussed what she would have wanted and her regular physician informed the panel of Dr.s what my mom had told him many times.  And what she told us.  So the decision was made to remove all the monitoring devises and give her a morphine drip for any pain she may have.  They are continuing to do oxygen and of course hydrating her. 
We were moved into a different room that was more quiet and peaceful. There are windows and couches and chairs and not all that "noise" around.  We were told what to look for as her time grows near as far as her breathing and how her body will shut down.  It's all very difficult but I have made my goodbyes to her and hope that she doesn't linger like this for long for all our sakes.  We will probably turn off the oxygen today because at this point it is a life sustaining treatment, and it was recommended yesterday.
We all spent the night with her listening to her breathing get slower and slower.  This morning her kidneys are starting to shut down so it is just a matter of time.  We agreed that we need to take turns taking a time out today.  I am home to shower and try to eat something, maybe try to rest.
I will head back in a little while.  They will call me with any changes.
I have my work to do after she passes, I am the executor and have power of attorney.  Tammy found most all of her paper work for outstanding bills and such. And then there will be filing taxes, and dividing her assets.  We are going to try to get most things done like packing up things before my sister goes back down to Missouri.  We are just doing her clothes and personal items.  Tammy needs to decide what she wants to keep for everything else. It's all hers. 

I was working on scanning all my old family photos with the intent to make mom a giant picture book. I really shouldn't have procrastinated.
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